its funny i feel empty situation right now.. at the moment.. everyday i think about talking my own life.. this past year has sucked.. with my old friends.. alcohol.. drugs.. smoke.. then i stop school.. now i'm feeling alone.. nobody cares for me.. except this little keyboard in my desk.. my friends left me.. all alone.. i tried being nice to them.. no matter what i'm doing.. they just like it.. that's unfair.. i need somebody to talk.. i don't want to failed and broke apart like before.. because i lost touch of my mind.. i don't wanna go back my old life.. it scares me.. i have no prospects within 10 years from now.. i have no girl friend no real friends.. how can i find a friend who can understands me.. i'm all alone.. and i need a HOME..
my dreams are shattered and completely broken.. one relatives in my family have died in the past
year.. and i don't know if my cousin well cope of his problem.. i was so confuse.. which one i could do first.. mine or him.. i sometimes let myself go.. but it keeps on bothering in my mind..
daily i think about taking my own life too.. but i couldn't..
