I love my friends...but i hate them!
I really do, but it’s like how do I really know who’s a friend and who’s temporary. When I have a friend I treat you like more than a friend, I have high standards for you. I go out of my way to make sure you’re okay, I’ll call you 3am just to make sure you smile when you’ve just gone through something. I’m a very loving caring friend but the only problem is I have very low tolerance for bullshit. I can be your friend to an extent. I dislike immature, “all knowing”, drama related, “always right”, self centered, stuck up, rude and just plain annoying people. If you have these traits it’s extremely hard for me to talk to you. You would go on and on about something that’s technically over and I would be so annoyed to the point where I’d either ignore you or just flat out change the subject. Another type of people I can’t deal with are those who shadow you. Do what you like, say what you wanna hear.. that kind of stuff. Basically my point is I don’t know who I can call a friend. As my friend, I will always be there for you. To help and guide you in anyway I can. Sadly, lately I’ve been dropping those same friends. I believed that if we promise to be there for each other and I hold up my end of the promise you should too.
There was a situation where me and an ex had on and off problems, we were having a conversation and we briefly covered the “coming back” subject. Basically he wanted me to come back to him. I was already confused and hurt, filled with so much pain because I really did love this person. I called my friend at the time to talk about it and he went ballistic on me. His words; “Kala, you know what you’re suppose to do. You’re letting him rule your life and I’m mad because you’re acting very stupid. If you wanna get over him stop talking to him, leave him alone. People like him don’t deserve to be alive. We shouldn’t even be having this conversation because you know I’m right, why would you even talk to him? Why respond? I’m so mad, this just ruined my whole day.” You know, at first I’m like okay he’s somewhat right, if I want to get over someone I really do need to stand my ground. But his tone of voice was definitely unacceptable, I’m not stupid just confused. It’s something called feelings. Anyway, we were going through the same “ex” drama, and he’s like how he’s doing everything he told me to do. Turns out he’s talking to his pathetic like but they’re the best of idiot. I have no problem with that because he’s really a annoying frog. BUT, the fact is that he went against everything he stood for. He did the opposite of what he was fucking yelling at me to do. That right there is like.. the fuck dude? Seriously, people like THAT I have low tolerance for. I didn’t stop talking to him, I just stopped asking for advice because I don’t need a contradictor in my life at all.
There’s just way too many altercations for me to write. EVERYONE that I hold close as a friend loves me, but at the same time they don’t understand how they hurt me. I’d tell them but my problems just never seem important to anyone. It’s not that I need friends because I surely don’t, but if I can at least have that ONE friend I can go to, get genuine advice and just vent then I’d be set. Everyone needs someone. I’ll be the first to admit I do need someone. But who can I turn to when my friends turn out to not be so friendly and concerned? I just felt like venting right now, being alone is so not a good feeling at all. In a society filled with 5 thousand friends, not one every asks me Hey, you feeling okay today? I mean, yeah anyone can ask me that but there’s an extremely thin line between being concerned and just being annoying.
HAKE OCAMPO
YOUR A DICK!!! PAPASIN.. GET A LIFE BOYISH.
MIND YOUR OWN LIFE. STUPID!!!
